Promise Me

Promise me that you will breathe.  Promise me that you will put one foot in front of another.  Promise me that you will surround yourself with people who lift you up, not bring you down.  Promise me that you will smile again.  Promise me that you do whatever it takes to be happy again.  AND... my promise to you is that we will be in eternity together forever.

My precious husband Matt shared this with me three weeks before he went to heaven. With complete clarity and determination, Matt filled my heart and mind with everything he wanted me to know. Some of which I may share at a different time.  How blessed I am!!!

Matt fought stage 4 lung cancer for 4 1/2 years and lost the fight on December 11, 2011.  Our fight and battle with this disease is documented in caringbridge.org/mattharris if you would like to go deeper into our story. My husband was the most amazing, loving husband and father anyone could dream of.  My life's goal now that I am having to live every day with out him is to honor him.  He loved it when I wrote and told me that the day would come when somewhere deep within, my heart would beat to share this season of life in hopes of helping those who are grieving like me and for those who are walking along side the grieving. I think my heart, mind and soul are just beginning to wake up to the fact that days are continuing to come and go , and that I have to live this life without my soul mate and best friend.  As I write this, my heart is beating faster and my breaths are a bit shallower. The pain is indescribable but the desire to honor the promises that I made Matt will someday put everything in its place.

This blog will be filled with an up close and personal journey to grief and fulfilling promises. And with God's hand in mine, moving forward one step at a time.