Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Taxes Represent So Much More

Tax day came yesterday with an incomplete return until the end of the day.  Did anyone mess up?  NO! However, the wrath of cancer tried to have it's way. Until this year, Matt has taken care of the taxes, with me helping to gather all of the necessary documents. My husband was amazing with our finances and half way through the year he would do our taxes to make sure we were on track.  Not in 2011. For some reason, I thought I could pop in TurboTax and be on my way.  Not so much.  Digging in to the confusion, I realized that SSDI, long term disability, and a unjust lawsuit that we were not able to fight because of cancer, were going to cause us havoc.  I could hear my husband saying, let someone else take this.  So, I hired an accountant.  With a tremendous amount of patience of dealing with my emotions and a bit of a confusing mess, my accountant graciously met with me at 8:00 Monday night, explained every line and filed my return yesterday afternoon.

Sitting there going through the return line to line broke my heart.  It made me go through once again the immense amount of sadness of not having my best friend by my side, and made my heart hurt for Matt who had to live and die in 2011.   With such dignity, love and commitment to our 30 years,  Matt prepared me for whatever life is going to throw my way.  He taught me to fight, when to let go, and to always fall back on my faith.

Forever grateful!

2 comments:

  1. Wow Debbie. I never would have realized how much taxes represent and how hard that must have been for you to do without Matt. Thanks for sharing your perspective. It helps me to better understand how to support others.

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  2. .My prayer is that this blog helps someone like me and someone like you who will walk by someone's side

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