Please know that I am not being boastful. In fact, I am incredibly grateful and very sad that this will be my first mother's day with out Matt. Living life with Matt was awesome. Did we have hard days? Yes. Did we always work through those days? Yes. The one thing I always knew was that I was cherished by my husband no matter what. When I put my foot in my mouth, he would put his hand on my should to say, "honey really"?, When I spoke in front of the church, he would be so proud, that he would embarrass me while he was taking pictures. Oh my gosh, I would think, "What is he doing? He would just say afterwards, "That was amazing". I would smile and say thanks. Inside, he filled my heart with an abundance of love.
On Mother's Day for 25 years, Matt made one day on the calender amazing. The funniest Mother's Day was when I opened a card and he put a picture of a freezer that I really wanted inside of it. Note, to all of the husbands out there. No appliances for Mother's Day. I was mortified and pretended to be grateful at the same time. Not being so sleuth like with my emotions, he knew that he had hit a chord and tore up the picture. We ended up planting a rose garden together. As I write this, I am smiling from the inside out with tears on the outside coming from within. As the years went on, Matt taught our children to honor their mother. Not just on this one particular day but all of the time. He taught them to make helper coupons, pick flowers, draw pictures, create masterpieces and of course in our family make a special card. When our kids got older, I had Mother's days of strawberries and cantaloupe, beautiful flowers, chocolate raisins, a new raft for the pool and of course People magazine. My son and husband became the cabana boys of the day and my daughter saw to so many details to make the day beyond special. This didn't all happen by accident. My husband was the father and husband that I could only dream of all of my life. I was spoiled with love. I spoiled back with love. We loved.
Last year, for Mother's Day, I really wondered if it would be our last together. As all of the other years, it was my day. He showered me with his love and attention along with my children. On our very last Mother's Day, Matt gave me a beautiful cross for my charm bracelet. It is perfect. My first cross ever, because I just couldn't find the right one. He did.
My heart is eternally grateful for being given the gift of being Matt's wife and Blake and Nicole's mom.
Thank you honey.
Debbie,
ReplyDeleteI had you on my mind yesterday so much, aware that it was your first Mother's Day without Matt. Today I thought I'd check your blog, and there it is, you wrote about Mother's Days in the past and the legacy Matt left with Nicole and Blake. What a teacher he was, without really being a "teacher."
Thank you for writing about Mother's Day and Matt's everlasting impact on you and your family, and all of us.